hi everyone! :D im new to livejournal n ive been readin ur posts 4 ages n jst wanted to say how amazing and nice you all are! youre all so helpful and supportive towards each other and ur jst such incredible people.
i feel like i no each of u so well, and i just wanted to say ur jst such huge inspirations to me.
rite so, im currently trying to recover from anorexia. ive had it 4 about two years now, and its not easy and you know lol
my current stats are:
height: 5ft 1"
weight: 87.08lbs
lw: just under 5stone and a half (not sure bout the lbs)
highest: around 8stone (before anorexia)
i dont intend to have a goal weight as i feel pressure to reach it, and i dont want to beat myself up if i dont get there in the time that i want, so i just want to work towards being happy with myself, as most of you are. i think with positive attitudes and enjoying life, i can get there. i want to be able to help others on my way to my goal, and basically i just want to get better, but am finding it hard to "recover" if that will ever happen. its just so hard to let go of this way of life. its like stepping out into a whole new planet of insecurities and i just feel safe with myself at the moment. i know im skinny (at times) and i know im ill. i havent had a period for a year, and thats what is pushing me to get better. but at the same time i just see a fat beast in the mirror. no one else understands me, and all i want is for people to care about how i feel, and thats why i joined, because i know you guys genuinely do.
thank you so much for your posts and things, because i realise how incredible you are, you lot are trying to push yourselves to get happy with yourselves, and yea... lol
sorry for such a long post but i just want to tell eveyone of you, your all such beautiful people on the inside from what ive read which to me shows that you are beautiful on the outside.
"thin is in" but in is beauty, and in all of you is true beauty, so surely we can focus on the beauty inside instead of out?
my names fran btw lol
have a fab days guys, and i hope to hear from you! keep smiling and enjoy your days, focus on the positive things and things will seem alot better. xxxxx